things weren’t quite so complicated. My head wasn’t constantly questioning my heart, and vice versa. I knew what I needed to do because the goal was clear-cut. I didn’t spend hours on the Internet trying to understand various countries’ immigration processes. I wasn’t trying to make everyone else happy, and consequently, I was. I didn’t second-guess myself. I was motivated, everyday. Insurance was optional. I didn’t have this all-too-frequent sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I didn’t feel like I was moving backwards. My life was exactly what I expected it to be.