Back in December 2007, I wrote: “Do you ever get the feeling that the universe already has a plan for you, but that you’ve just not been made aware of it yet?”
I know exactly what I was thinking when I wrote that, the context in which it was contemplated. Today I found myself thinking the same thing…it felt deja vu. So I searched my blog for the passage because I need to revisit this for a minute.
Although I have the same feeling today, the interesting thing is that what I thought back then was accurate, but not.
What I am trying to say is that it’s amazing how many obstacles one faces, how much “bad luck” there seems to be when you think you’re on the right path, but you’re not. I do believe in free will, but I think there is a heavenly knowingness that gives you warning signs when you’re barking up the wrong tree. And I believe that same knowingness opens doors when you’re heading toward the right one. I also believe this is probably called intuition.
I have faced a number of trials in the last 365 days; it has been the most difficult year of my life so far. It wasn’t all bad, just very complicated and very emotional. Things continue to evolve, but here on September 16, it’s quite stunning how once the course changes, things fall into place. The doors stop slamming in your face. Is that a sign, a hint? I don’t know. But I do know this: when you make a choice and it is an uphill battle with no logical reprieve, you either accept difficulty and strife as your life, or you look for an alternative.